Stillness

A couple of weeks ago, I was bouncing around my kitchen getting ready for the day.

I was reflecting on the word that God had given me for 2019 – TRANSFORM.

I thought of how I was so annoyed by it at first because it wasn’t the word I would have chosen.

I thought of how much that simple, silly word had allowed me to change my mental wellbeing throughout the year.

I thought of how grateful I was that God knows what’s best for me.

And then I had the thought, “Oh my gosh, I wonder what 2020’s word is going to be?!”

Now then, if you go back and read how I worded my thought, you will see that I didn’t actually ask God for the new word, I just wondered about it.

God took it as an open invitation to tell me, to give me the spoiler before I even sat down to watch the movie, to spill the beans on what my next year was going to entail!

The word was STILLNESS.

For those of you who know me, let that sink in for a moment.

For those of you who do not know me, let me just say that I run on 2 gears – full speed ahead or asleep!

There really isn’t an in between.

I literally laughed and said out loud, “Well it’s a good thing I didn’t ask for it because that way it doesn’t count, right?!”

I tried to move on with my day like it didn’t happen.

I tried to joke around with Him and ask for the real 2020 word.

I tried.

But God had spoken the word STILLNESS over my year.

So here I am, sitting in the new year, contemplating what this word is going to look like for me.

I checked out the definition – the absence of movement or sound.

That freaked me out a little bit so I looked up synonyms – calm, calmness, hush, peace, peacefulness, placidity, quiet, quietness, quietude, repose, restfulness, sereneness, serenity, still, tranquility.

Interesting…

Isn’t it so cool, though, how God assures us in His Word that He goes before us and prepares the wilderness (Isaiah 43:19)?

He had already gone before me to start preparing my heart for this STILLNESS journey and I didn’t even know it!

A few days after Thanksgiving, I attended a Sign Post Saturday at Revival 356 and the topic for this particular Saturday was Be Still and Know.

Sneaky, isn’t He?!

Yesterday, I read through the notes I had taken and found these little nuggets just waiting for me:

*A knowing always follows stillness

* Stillness allows connection with my deepest self

* I have to go to the deepest part of me to be able to give the deepest part of me

I know there will be times when STILLNESS will mean to literally stop moving and listen to my soul, but I also understand that I am not going to physically be STILL for a year.

STILLNESS is going to be manifested when I rely on God’s calmness, peace and tranquility.

My heart is pounding with excitement and anticipation to see where the STILLNESS leads me.

My bags are packed and I am ready for the journey!

<>< KC